This is one of the most beautiful and precious viewpoints on life after “death” …and I am honored to share this recent email where Esther Hicks expresses her thoughts about her husband Jerry’s passing on Friday, November 18th:

Dear, dear Friends,

Our sweet Jerry made his transition into Nonphysical last Friday. How sweet the Vortex is feeling to him today!

Jerry said to me when we came together over 30 years ago that given the difference in our ages that it was likely “that I will cut out on you early,” to which I replied, “I don’t mind.” His joy of life and continual new discovery of purpose kept his life feeling fresh and we shared such joyous eagerness for life.

Over the years, Abraham has consistently insisted that there is no death. Again and again they have reminded us that there is only life and more life and more life. It has taken me some time to understand this, and I honestly must say I have not yet fully come to terms with it, but I do believe that in what we are calling Jerry’s death he is discovering the next logical step of life that Abraham has always been talking about. And at times I am catching a glimpse of the bigness of what Jerry is feeling and while I am still pretty mad at him for not sticking around longer to surprise and delight me in all the ways he has been doing throughout our 30 years together I accept fully that the next logical step of joyous life for Jerry was to be found in his re-emergence into Nonphysical.

Since 1985 it has been Jerry and Esther and Abraham and I believe with everything that I am that that has not changed. I know that Jerry will continue to be the third powerful point of the triad of Energy that makes up the Abraham experience and I am certain that his new vantage point will be, as it has always been, of advantage to us all.

I know for sure that Jerry will help me, in time, release my own personal resistance to physical death, because I will not be able to maintain that resistance and also play easily with him. And my desire to continue not only my Abraham experience but also my Jerry experience I am certain he will be the catalyst to help me do what Abraham has been trying to help us all do all along.

Once again, Jerry is out there leading the way for me. But the difference this time is that I must find the way. I am not there yet, but it is my absolute promise to myself that I will find the way, because it is the most natural thing in the world to do and because Jerry has provided for me the reason to do it.

I am eager about what is ahead and while I cannot begin to explain or even imagine the details of how it is all going to play out, I am certain that it will be fun.

I am such a fortunate girl, to have been able to play with Jerry and Abraham and all of you for so many wonderful years and I am so eager to continue doing more of the same for many more years to come. I feel certain right now that not only has nothing gone wrong, but things are going especially right. It will be different, for sure, but it will also be very, very good.

I’m feeling such love for you all, and for Abraham and most of all for Jerry. And as I have said to him a thousand or more times through the years, “Well isn’t life just a kick in the pants?”

Love,
Esther

I am humbled at the strength and clarity of purpose of Esther. She is living life and enjoying the process…thank you Jerry for all the joy you shared with Esther, but also for sharing this love with the world. You are an inspiration to many!!!

Peace be with you…always!

PS – here’s a lovely Appreciation page from their site.

I stumbled upon this today via a friend, I thought it was a powerful reminder of what is so…

Happy Mother’s Day…Mother Teresa!!!

“People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;

Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives:

Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies:

Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you:

Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight:

Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous:

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow:

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough:

Give the world the best you’ve got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;

It was never between you and them anyway.”

-Mother Teresa

 

What do you think? Does this make sense to you too?

I spent last weekend at a woman’s retreat hosted by Mary Morrissey and Rickie Byars Beckwith…and one of the things I discovered for myself was that sometimes we put someone or something up on such a high pedestal that no one or nothing can quite live up to that memory! Not that remembering what is good and also great about a past experience or person is a bad thing. This is quite uplifting and comforting…such as in times of a loved one’s passing. We remember the great things about that person and cherish them. We re-experience those precious moments shared and hold those memories close to our heart. No longer are we focused or tangled up with the painful circumstances or unpleasantries of that relationship…we basically put the remembered one up on that pedestal and there they remain.

As I said, that’s not necessarily a bad thing…but what I discovered this past weekend was kinda liberating for me personally. You see, I only in recent years been aware of the fact that I have been “protecting” my heart…protecting it and hiding it from the pain of a perceived loss of “unconditional love” from somewhere in the past. A friend of mine pulled me aside and asked me the question “why are you hiding your heart?” Not only did I not know the answer to his question, I wasn’t even aware of the fact that I was doing this!!! Ha…isn’t that a kick in the pants knowing that’s exactly what I would like to have and give to others – unconditional love – and that if my heart is in fact closed and hidden, then that is impossible to achieve!!! And why is that so hard for me to attain? accept? or give?

Now let me explain before I may be misunderstood here… I consider myself to be a kind and loving person (at least in theory!) and strive to be just that in all circumstances (double haha)…but so often I get caught up in being impatient, annoyed and irritated, and in arguments with the people I love most! so what gives? I want exactly the opposite and my intentions are something completely not in alignment with those low-level feelings, so why do I get swept away in it and carry on that way???

This exact dynamic has been high on my list to explore and resolve…for pretty much the past three years. And here is what I discovered this past weekend. Forgiveness and a level of new awareness and understanding!!! In the first place, forgiving myself for not knowing what I was doing…and forgiving myself for allowing something (or someone) to be put up on such a high pedestal that nothing or no one else can quite compare!!! You see, if I am always comparing something to something else (and that something else or someone else could be now considered superhuman with how high I have placed them up on a perch!) – even if it is all true and I perhaps have had the best and most indescribable essence of unconditional love somewhere in my past, why let that prevent me from experiencing just that in my current circumstances and current relationships? What’s up with that???

My “aha” awareness on this subject is that I can use that memory or past experience (even if it is made up and larger than life) and bring that into my current relationships, right here and right now!!! Who wouldn’t want to have more love? If I have had the best…then why not re-create that and enjoy that experience in ALL of my present relationships?!!! It’s actually my responsibility to share that with everyone I come in contact with…to lead by example and share my heart and love “unconditionally” and without any holding back!

Now that may be easier said than done…but I’m not going to enter into an agreement with that! I am going to step forward and try do my best in sharing that “special love” (a love that perhaps seems like a distant memory and maybe even like a romantic fairy-tale) with others! But to do so, I will have to allow that which binds and hides my own heart, to be set free and allowed to love freely in order to do so… (see my previous post for more on that…) I will have to acknowledge that “nothing lasts forever” – unless of course you pass it forward and incorporate that love and experience within your current relationships…

Does any of this resonate with you?

How are you holding back, and is your heart held in bondage preventing it to be shared freely?

Are there areas in your relationships where this is apparent, or ways you can see any of this within your life?

I would like to know if any of this rings true for anyone else…

Please feel share your comments with me!!!

Not that the purpose of this blog is to be preachy or religious in nature…but it begins at a time of the celebration of easter. So that is where this begins…as I ponder the meaning of “resurrection” and how that applies within my own life.

This hit me square in the eyes mid-day last friday (and good friday at that)…pretty much out of the blue I was overcome with emotion and a state of sadness that was certainly unexpected. My husband, Dave asked me why I was so sad…and I began to think about just that. After letting it sit for the rest of the day, it wasn’t until the next morning when i had some quiet time, that I began to journal…and here is what came out of that…

4/23/11 inspired writing:

Good Friday was yesterday and it was an unusual experience for me personally…it began with a great breakfast with two friends (one new and one old) where the sharing and synergy between the three of us was off the charts amazing…I so look forward to seeing what greatness comes out of this new found triangle of talents :-) …as is said, where two or more are gathered!

From there I went down to pick up Dave from the airport after an east coast outing to visit with some of his ballplayers. During a re-cap of some of his developments from the trip, it became apparent that something else was coming into play for me…I became irritable and just plain sad…and then it hit me what day it was and what time of day it was…tears came up and I began sharing some of my innermost feelings with Dave and how I was feeling…I asked him to write on it (which basically means an “inspired writing” process for us where we take the time to get in touch with divine and inner guidance) and…what came through was a message for me to not return to the pain but to spend time and thoroughly enjoy my family now in the present…

As is usually the case, I was not even aware of this thing I might be doing (isn’t it funny how an outside perspective can instantly cut to the chase and show you something that is not so obvious to ourselves?).

So this got me thinking…am I seeking to relive the pain and anguish of the events of Good Friday? Or am I simply honoring or remembering what occurred? How do you stay in touch with the past without being re-immersed into that experience? I am tempted to watch the DVD “Passion of the Christ” because it was such a profound experience in the past for me (so much so that after watching it for the first time in the movie theaters, I found myself unable to even talk to my husband about it afterwards and even had to wait until the next morning – it was just too painful and the raw feelings of emotions could not yet be expressed)…but then I teeter to the other side where I am being told I should stay and that is in the present here and now with the love of my family.

As I write these words emotions and tears rise to the surface and I wonder what is really going on here…the past holds truths and wisdom upon which to build a greater future, but how do you do that and visit with the past without being held prisoner with it now while trying to attempt living a full and meaningful like in the present? There seems to be a delicate balance between knowing your past and moving through it and creating a better future. I always say that my core purpose is to “remember who you are…and why you are here” and by allowing myself to do just that…to remember who I am, I find that much of that is hidden and actually lies in the past waiting to be revealed. And by going through the process of remembering…and getting random glimpses of past events from lifetimes ago and history past…pieces of the puzzle begin to connect and a bigger picture begins to take shape and form.

So, I ask again…how do I stay in touch with the past without being held prisoner to the pain? It is meaningless and unproductive to do so? Or perhaps there is some aspect of that pain that can be liberating and productive – they say the truth shall set you free, but I can’t help to think that finding that,  or in some cases “reliving” the truth can be painful and very sad at times…is this wrong? Is this counter-productive in living life to its fullest in the present?

[With so many questions floating around in my head, I turned inward to quiet my mind and did my own “inspired writing process” to seek answers. This is what came to me after doing just that:]

Yes my child you are loved…most deeply and profoundly…it is okay to now allow that love to crumble the walls you have constructed to protect your wounded heart. It is okay to allow it (your heart) to feel…feel the pain and feel the love that is available at every moment and in every instance. Let the remaining blocks and mortar to fall away and crumble in a heap at the foot of your cross. No longer should you attempt to move forward without the tremendous weight and burden of those bricks and stones step forward in the light and love and  pure essence of who you really are and that which you are meant to be…a life fully realized and experienced in truth and transparency standing naked in the center of my love to guide you forward…with no pain or sorrow to hold you back or bind you…break free from the straps you have wrapped so skillfully around that which you are trying to protect…and protect from what? A life of love that you are here to experience? A life filled with purpose you are meant to live? It is okay to revisit the past and to feel the emotions that come with that experience naturally and organically, just be mindful to stay in touch with the love of the present and with gratitude and great reverence for all life in this moment, which is naturally the present moment – a life full of grace. These are the moments to thank God you are alive J  I love you dearly with all of my heart and essence and in “every” moment of every existence across the universes and in all constructions of time and space – always and in all ways!

So there you have it…my inner most thoughts and feelings! Part of me is reluctant to share this and part of me knows that it is time…

You see it is not all about me…it is about us. The community we build around us and the relationships we build in trust and transparency. I invite you into this community and would really like to know what you think…I’d like to engage in an open conversation and see what comes out of it! You may think I’m nuts or am perhaps “off my rocker,” but I am going to put “my love my life” out there and invite you to do the same!

Please leave a comment and tell me what you think…

Gratefully yours,

ps. i did end up watching “Passion of the Christ” the day after easter…but i will save those insights for another day s this post is already long enough  :-)

In total transparency and naked truth I begin this journey of revealing my thoughts…not that I know where this is going, but I hope you will enjoy the process along with me! For the past several years I have played with the idea of starting a blog…a sort of personal journal of random thoughts and insights. Well as I am part Virgo and have that “planning” until you are all planned out side of me, ya you guessed it, I could be planning this thing out for another decade at least!!!

So here goes…I am diving in head first and seeing where it goes and knowing that the path will be guided and we will find the way…

Part of me is terrified, part of me is being liberated (i think!)…can I really share my innermost thoughts and feelings to the entire world? No more worrying about what the neighbors will think, no more holding back expressing my beliefs, no more keeping silent with what is really important to me and what really matters in life. I have a voice and I am going to let it be heard…for better or for worse. Well that is my intention. I hope to have the courage to stay open and allow my thoughts to be shared freely and spontaneously. In doing so, maybe someone can relate in some way and perhaps feel at a deeper level within their own lives.

Thank you for taking a peek into my life and my thoughts. I hope we can share some magic together in the days, months, and years to come (smile)  Heck we are all in this game called life together…and I believe we are here to help each other and love each other fully…so here we go “My love my life” begins today…

This is my story…and my perspective on life as I know it!